… It was
about this time I conceiv'd the bold and arduous project of arriving at moral
perfection. I wish'd to live without committing any fault at any time; I would
conquer all that either natural inclination, custom, or company might lead me
into. As I knew, or thought I knew, what was right and wrong, I did not see why
I might not always do the one and avoid the other. But I soon found I had
undertaken a task of more difficulty than I bad imagined. While my care was
employ'd in guarding against one fault, I was often surprised by another; habit
took the advantage of inattention; inclination was sometimes too strong for
reason. I concluded, at length, that the mere speculative conviction that it
was our interest to be completely virtuous, was not sufficient to prevent our
slipping; and that the contrary habits must be broken, and good ones acquired
and established, before we can have any dependence on a steady, uniform
rectitude of conduct. For this purpose I therefore contrived the following
method.
In the
various enumerations of the moral virtues I had met with in my reading, I found
the catalogue more or less numerous, as different writers included more or
fewer ideas under the same name. Temperance, for example, was by some confined
to eating and drinking, while by others it was extended to mean the moderating
every other pleasure, appetite, inclination, or passion, bodily or mental, even
to our avarice and ambition. I propos'd to myself, for the sake of clearness,
to use rather more names, with fewer ideas annex'd to each, than a few names
with more ideas; and I included under thirteen names of virtues all that at
that time occurr'd to me as necessary or desirable, and annexed to each a short
precept, which fully express'd the extent I gave to its meaning.
These names
of virtues, with their precepts, were:
My intention being to acquire the habitude of all these virtues, I
judg'd it would be well not to distract my attention by attempting the whole at
once, but to fix it on one of them at a time; and, when I should be master of
that, then to proceed to another, and so on, till I should have gone thro' the
thirteen; and, as the previous acquisition of some might facilitate the
acquisition of certain others, I arrang'd them with that view, as they stand
above. Temperance first, as it tends to procure that coolness and clearness of
head, which is so necessary where constant vigilance was to be kept up, and
guard maintained against the unremitting attraction of ancient habits, and the
force of perpetual temptations. This being acquir'd and establish'd, Silence
would be more easy; and my desire being to gain knowledge at the same time that
I improv'd in virtue, and considering that in conversation it was obtain'd
rather by the use of the ears than of the tongue, and therefore wishing to
break a habit I was getting into of prattling, punning, and joking, which only
made me acceptable to trifling company, I gave Silence the second place. This
and the next, Order, I expected would allow me more time for attending to my
project and my studies. Resolution, once become habitual, would keep me firm in
my endeavors to obtain all the subsequent virtues; Frugality and Industry
freeing me from my remaining debt, and producing affluence and independence,
would make more easy the practice of Sincerity and Justice, etc., etc.
Conceiving then, that, agreeably to the advice of Pythagoras in his Golden Verses,
daily examination would be necessary, I contrived the following method for
conducting that examination.
I made a
little book, in which I allotted a page for each of the virtues. I rul'd each
page with red ink, so as to have seven columns, one for each day of the week,
marking each column with a letter for the day. I cross'd these columns with
thirteen red lines, marking the beginning of each line with the first letter of
one of the virtues, on which line, and in its proper column, I might mark, by a
little black spot, every fault I found upon examination to have been committed
respecting that virtue upon that day.
Form of the
pages.
+-------------------------------+ | TEMPERANCE. | +-------------------------------+ | EAT NOT TO DULNESS; | | DRINK NOT TO ELEVATION. | +-------------------------------+ | | S.| M.| T.| W.| T.| F.| S.| +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+ | T.| | | | | | | | +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+ | S.| * | * | | * | | * | | +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+ | O.| **| * | * | | * | * | * | +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+ | R.| | | * | | | * | | +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+ | F.| | * | | | * | | | +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+ | I.| | | * | | | | | +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+ | S.| | | | | | | | +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+ | J.| | | | | | | | +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+ | M.| | | | | | | | +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+ | C.| | | | | | | | +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+ | T.| | | | | | | | +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+ | C.| | | | | | | | +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+ | H.| | | | | | | | +---+---+---+---+---+---+---+---+
I determined to give a week's strict attention to each of the virtues successively. Thus, in the first week, my great guard was to avoid every the least offence against Temperance, leaving the other virtues to their ordinary chance, only marking every evening the faults of the day. Thus, if in the first week I could keep my first line, marked T, clear of spots, I suppos'd the habit of that virtue so much strengthen'd and its opposite weaken'd, that I might venture extending my attention to include the next, and for the following week keep both lines clear of spots. Proceeding thus to the last, I could go thro' a course compleat in thirteen weeks, and four courses in a year. And like him who, having a garden to weed, does not attempt to eradicate all the bad herbs at once, which would exceed his reach and his strength, but works on one of the beds at a time, and, having accomplish'd the first, proceeds to a second, so I should have, I hoped, the encouraging pleasure of seeing on my pages the progress I made in virtue, by clearing successively my lines of their spots, till in the end, by a number of courses, I should he happy in viewing a clean book, after a thirteen weeks' daily examination.